Day 1

 “Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”
― Oscar Wilde


Everyone has a New Years Resolution or two right? They want to work out more, be nicer to a family member, or stop eating junk food. My New Years Resolution is a little bit different. I want to go the whole year of 2013 without having sex, I'm calling it A Year of Celibacy. I got the idea about a year ago watching The Colbert Report. His guest speaker was a woman named Hephzibah Anderson, author of the book Chastened: My Modern adventure In Old-Fashioned Romance. At the age of 30 she realized that she had not had a serious relationship in years, no man had told her he loved her, and she was emotionally unsatisfied. She decided to make a change and take a year off sex. She learned how to be in a relationship without sex and learned a lot about herself as well. I started to wonder if I could do that, if I could be absence of sex for a whole year. At the age of 22 this is the time I am supposed to sleep around and have fun. However I do not like who I have become in the past few years. When I was younger I had all these rules to loose my virginity. I dated this guy for a whole year, fell madly in love with him and made him wait to have sex. I was 17 when I lost my virginity and was very proud of myself. Every rule I made when I was a little 14 year old girl I had kept. I dated that boy for 2 more years and before I left for college I broke up with him. At 19 years old my number was 1, now my number is 12. For some people that is not bad, and I myself am okay with it as well. Others may judge and think they are better because their number is less then mine but I do not regret anything. I do believe sex is something serious and something that you should do with someone you are comfortable with and have feelings for. However I also agree it is fun.

Hephzibah Anderson

For the past few years I have been trying to find myself, but in that I have always seemed to have a guy in my life. Usually before I break up with a guy I am dating I have another guy already in mind I want to date/ be with. And if I don't it will only take a few days to find a new guy. For the past few years I have been from guy to guy. When I break up with one I always saying that I am gonna take a break. But it seems like I never end up doing that. 
I want to be a better person, and feel better about myself. This isn't to make other people feel better, or to judge others. This is something I want to see if I can do. I wanna know what it is like to go on a date and not expect sex. I want to see if a guy will care about me even if I wont do certain things.
This year of no sex will be tough but I want to try and see. I may fail in one week, or in six months who really knows. This blog will probably never be read by anyone, or maybe just a few people. But I need to write about it or else I will fail tomorrow. This blog will talk about the boys in my life, ones I have been with and ones that may want to be with. I will try to keep the details to a minimum for some things. And some days may be boring, but like I said. This is for myself, and only myself.